Returning: I Had to Break My Own Rules

Hopeless - the scariest of feelings...

This week...
I have been sick and on medicine and on my couch.

There were no words,
no songs,
only illness and worries... and hopelessness,

about school, life, money, and the potentials and the perhaps.

But, as always seems to happen, things change... and in my favour.

I am continually blessed.

There is not one way, but many ways, many opportunities waiting just around the bend.

I got a grade changed and will get my financial aid. I cannot tell you how relieved that makes me feel. I thought that I was going to have to save up enough money to take some classes and get back in good standing with the school.

It is a big focus this year to get HEALTHY. I am so darn tired of getting sick and I have to change some deeply entrenched habits. It will not be easy, but the best things in life are not easily attained. :-)

I know that I am breaking my own rules in writing this blog (since I wrote that i was taking a month off of writing), but I had to share.

After a week of silence it is thrilling to hear the song of the phoenix returning, simple, but true.

Much love,
Dustin

Comments

Loving the Squiggly

I was typing the other day and instead of hitting the ! key I hit the ~ key. Two odd altercations happened between two friends and me via facebook so I have deactivated my account for a bit. It was hurtful and unexpected. So when I hit the ~ key it made me smile and forget all that nonsense. ~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dustin

And With This, Farewell

This blog has been a dear friend to me. I am not good at farewells, but truly this is anything but. I look at it like this - I love the phoenix, the symbolism of it all, the power of rebirth. Hence why I named my blog/musing screen after one. :-) So, I am leaving this particular blog to start another one, one that fits me NOW, the one that I can share in a new way. So this feels right. Thanks to those who have read my musings throughout the years. I hope you follow me to my new musing home entitled THE TWELVE THAT IS DUSTIN BAYLAN. Yes, I am changing the name, the story of that is on the new blog for you to read. Here is the link: http://dustinbaylan.wordpress.com/ Much love, much hope and joy again, much potential... Winks and smiles of the Cat that is Cheshire, Dustin Baylan

Holding the Key

Only I am solid ground. Those whom I love - the new, the familiar - can be my circle, my connections... but the connection to self is the key I have been missing. Peace fills me as I hold the key and begin to unlock the doors of my life. Only I am solid ground and I embrace the beauty of me. Dustin

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