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Restless Morning

Waking up to a panic attack is not something I would wish upon anyone, no matter how heinous.

It has been days since I wrestled with panic, I was hoping the attacks were gone.

Alas, not this morning.

The good news?

It was not as long and I was able to calm down quicker.

Today, I am bound and determined to start mapping a new path towards joy, even if it is one windy path traversing all over this new map of my life.

And a wise friend of mine (Regi) told me to let myself be sick and take some of the pressure away. So today I am just going to be me in the place where I am, not the place I want to be and see if that makes any difference.

Dustin

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