Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Loving the Squiggly

I was typing the other day and instead of hitting the ! key I hit the ~ key.

Two odd altercations happened between two friends and me via facebook so I have deactivated my account for a bit. It was hurtful and unexpected.

So when I hit the ~ key it made me smile and forget all that nonsense.


Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Much Needed Silence

The past few days I have liked the darkness, the silence of my room. I have not come out much and have watched "Sleepless in Seattle" over and over and over and over.

I started wondering why I want to be alone (I am not depressed at all) and started doing the roommate math.

I have lived with 41 different people in my life.
I have lived in 21 different living environments not including all the different times I moved around with my family as a kid.

I have hit a wall where I just want ME time and a lot of it, no talking, no sharing, just alone time.

In this much needed silence I find that I am a much simpler person than I once was, that I really love the quiet, and that it is time to live alone soon.

I have done the roomie thing more than anyone I know and met some wonderful people, but I am overloaded with that experience.

So, back to "Sleepless in Seattle" and my much needed silence.


Thursday, June 9, 2011

My Soul Well

Today I taught my first voice/musical theatre lesson in the studio where I now work. I love teaching my kiddos but it was glorious to teach one on one with a young lady who is so talented, so open, and so fun.

I lived YEARS away from purpose just hoping that I would find something - anything - that would fill my soul well.

It is full, it is wonderful, and I am just soaking that up in my very skin.

Soul smiles to you,

Holding the Key

Only I am solid ground.
Those whom I love - the new, the familiar - can be my circle, my connections...
but the connection to self is the key I have been missing.
Peace fills me as I hold the key and begin to unlock the doors of my life. Only I am solid ground and I embrace the beauty of me.


Wednesday, May 25, 2011

I Am Back

I missed this blog so I am coming back.
I now have two blogs.
I am too cool for school.

Dustin Ashley Beam Baylan

Friday, October 29, 2010

And With This, Farewell

This blog has been a dear friend to me.
I am not good at farewells, but truly this is anything but.
I look at it like this - I love the phoenix, the symbolism of it all, the power of rebirth.

Hence why I named my blog/musing screen after one. :-)

So, I am leaving this particular blog to start another one, one that fits me NOW, the one that I can share in a new way.

So this feels right.

Thanks to those who have read my musings throughout the years. I hope you follow me to my new musing home entitled


Yes, I am changing the name, the story of that is on the new blog for you to read.

Here is the link:

Much love, much hope and joy again, much potential...

Winks and smiles of the Cat that is Cheshire,
Dustin Baylan

Saturday, September 25, 2010

I Miss Thee

I miss thee, my blog, my tapestry of musings...
I shall return soon to thee, with a richer smile.
Until then, you are not forgotten.

Winks and smiles of the cat that is Cheshire,