The Electric Perfect

It is a prevalent theme in my musings the past few months to mention change, newness, the unfamiliar.

Somewhere in the midst of this newity, I fell in love with my life. Is it perfect or what I imagined it would be? Hmmm... to answer that question I must break the rules of etiquette and answer with a question. What is perfection? My life is a perfect representation of what it needs to be RIGHT NOW, here in the present. So, it is Dustin perfect, full of neuroses and eccentricities and magic. It is electric perfect.

As for where I imagined my life to be at this particular age, this particular portion of the story, whew... I have been a slew of different people the past decade and what I thought about life and my particular contribution has changed and is still evolving.

Bottom line is: Life is spectacular in its simplicity, its complexity, its duality, its darkness, its light, and my newfound pally pal pal, the grey.

Explore it for therein lies the good stuff.

I am not afraid anymore.

Hell, I will write that sentence again as it is enormously gratifying and powerful.

I AM NOT AFRAID ANYMORE... of life, of change, of where my career path leads me, of what is to come.

I am just where I am and enjoying that and the process once more.

I hope that you are joyous as well and that you can find the purpose, the frivolity, and the electric perfect in your days, nights, and daydreams...

YAY!
Dustin

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The Leprechaun Loving Lush

Tonight I got snockered with some bombastic leprechauns, dabbled in the cuisine of Acadia, conversed with some drunk oddities, called and text people in quite a state of lowered inhibitions/let's talk about life and giggle, and discussed trivial matters (Is "Sweeney Todd" actually a good film, why do I like "Twilight", etc.) as if life depended on how I articulated my stance in these matters. What an odd, fun, new, out-of-the-comfort zone night for me. Gloriously uncomfortable and disgusting decadent. YAY. Every day I seem to be doing something I have never done before: from the tiny to the grand. It is an experiment and I am loving and loathing it, and all the intoxicating in-betweens. (Yes, not-so-clever pun intended.) I hope that everyone had a wonderful St. Patty's day! (oh my, that is like Sandi Patty, but not at all...) Love, The DABalicious Leprechaun Loving Lush

Much Needed Silence

The past few days I have liked the darkness, the silence of my room. I have not come out much and have watched "Sleepless in Seattle" over and over and over and over. I started wondering why I want to be alone (I am not depressed at all) and started doing the roommate math. I have lived with 41 different people in my life. I have lived in 21 different living environments not including all the different times I moved around with my family as a kid. I have hit a wall where I just want ME time and a lot of it, no talking, no sharing, just alone time. In this much needed silence I find that I am a much simpler person than I once was, that I really love the quiet, and that it is time to live alone soon. I have done the roomie thing more than anyone I know and met some wonderful people, but I am overloaded with that experience. So, back to "Sleepless in Seattle" and my much needed silence. Dustin

And With This, Farewell

This blog has been a dear friend to me. I am not good at farewells, but truly this is anything but. I look at it like this - I love the phoenix, the symbolism of it all, the power of rebirth. Hence why I named my blog/musing screen after one. :-) So, I am leaving this particular blog to start another one, one that fits me NOW, the one that I can share in a new way. So this feels right. Thanks to those who have read my musings throughout the years. I hope you follow me to my new musing home entitled THE TWELVE THAT IS DUSTIN BAYLAN. Yes, I am changing the name, the story of that is on the new blog for you to read. Here is the link: http://dustinbaylan.wordpress.com/ Much love, much hope and joy again, much potential... Winks and smiles of the Cat that is Cheshire, Dustin Baylan

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