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Three Weeks

Three weeks ago I had one of the worst nights in my life, a drive home that seemed like it lasted for nights upon nights, the black night echoing the darkness of my spirit.

Still, three weeks later, I am writhing, struggling, saddened, feeling so far away from myself knowing I severed a connection - something I never do.

Perspective in the past few weeks has lived in another space, apart from me.

I pray for the day that it returns and that I believe what my friends and family have been saying, that I will indeed recover from this and start again.

Of course, I already am, but these three weeks have been excruciating.

Perhaps one day I can look back on them and see the lessons, right now I just want a good night's sleep.

Much love,
Dustin

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