Operation (Consisfy, Hmmmify, Lifeify)

Operation: Naturify has been postponed. That is just a euphemistic way of writing I did not get my little white ass outside a lot, but there is always time and it will be restarted again in the future.

Operation: Fictionify is still underway, but will be a long Operation. Creating an entire world is exciting and TREMENDOUSLY overwhelming.

Operation: Sexify (the one that started them all) is still underway, but has taken a different approach. I feel attractive and realize I am one sexy madman. I do not want to be a recluse from the world of dating again. However, I liked when I did not know about the goings-on of the gays in the Rock. Now, I know a bit more and it is a small, small city. I am trying to find a balance so I am not a monk nor a regular in the Gay Tetris that is Little Rock.

But, I want to introduce three NEW and EXCITING Operations:

Operation: Consisify

and

Operation: Hmmmify

and

Operation: Lifeify

Operation: Consisify will consist of me bringing consistency to my life... a more regular schedule, sleeping at more normal hours, etc. I am embarking upon writing an in-depth schedule so I can bring on the consistency. I do like how I named the Operation for it has the word sissy, in it... although spelled differently.

Operation: Hmmmify refers to spiritual exploration. Years ago, I was extremely spiritual and turned that portion of my heart off after the trials of NYC. But, with the grief process, getting older, and being in a new place emotionally, I am ready to delve into the matters of what I believe, how I define a Higher Power. It is exciting and I am looking forward to this adventure.

Operation: Lifeify is all about me figuring out how to finish school, what my major will be, and how I can create a career, stability, and not leave my passions. I did not realize until recently how much of my identity was tied to the stage and how, for better or worse, I have done/attempted to do that which I love all my life. I do not want to EVER lead a passionless existence, but I feel there are other avenues out there for me. So, the next few months will be devoted to researching any of those options. (Thus far, child psychology, greeting card writer, marketing for toy companies, etc.)

A lot to do, but these are exciting operations. :-)
I really like having these Operations and creating fun names for them. It keeps my mind, heart, soul, and eyes focused on the prize and reminds me there is always a journey, an operation out there to live.

Dustin

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